Because

Because long bus rides are lonely and sad and heartbreaking
Because listening to this song breaks my heart
Because I want it to be 1994. or 1995. 1996. 98 99 again. But not the now. Not the last year or the immediate years before that.
Because lasted you haunted me in my dreams
Because it was heartbreaking and I just wanted it to be over.
Because it will give me the satisfaction I wanted, the conviction I wanted when it finally ends.
Because this, for me is redemption.
Because this for me is what I deserved.
Conviction and truth in my words.